i really wanna say i'm over you na.....as in no single feelings of "pagnanasa" or whatever you feel like calling it... kanina, when i saw you sa hallway, in which i am certain you did not see me, i was confused...last night, i was thinking, on how am i would forget my desires the moment i discovered the possibility that you are liking someone already....though it is not 100% sure yet, but i have this principle that i won't long for someone who is currently involve with someone else.... but in the first place, it is IMPOSSIBLE to fall for someone you hardly know, or to someone you talked with only once or twice.... maybe what i am feeling or felt for you is just an infatuation, or more, of an admiration.....i admit you inspired me a lot to pursue my goals and to work hard....with the attitude you have, i've seen success in you....
with all those signs before, i now figured out what do they mean...i now understand it that those signs happened for you to inspire me and work hard....that's it, no more no less....and despite that, i am still thankful for it......
i am so stupid, writing this.....in the first place, you would not know this and i DO NOT have any intention of letting you know this....i know it's not in your nature as well, of knowing other people's lives, or should we say, those who are not significant to you...and who am i? just a person who secretly admires you....maybe someday, we could be friends for real....i hope so...and i know there will be a time that you'll be with somebody else, and when that time comes, i would like to see you happy..
we have different worlds...and i believe that someday, we will be happy in our own worlds....thank you for inspiring me, though you are not really aware of it.....=) goodluck in your goals!!!!

some of my friends in the block: Irene, JC, and Rosa.....this was taken last April 1, after our year-ender party in BESTSOC!!!! that was fun...:-p then after the party, derecho kme kina digz sa vito cruz....dun, we continued our happenings....nag-inuman kme....ksma sina jihan and jason....para nga daw kme mga sira, kc ang kukulet na namin...hehe=) tpos nag-lakad pa ako ng npkahaba, from hz nina digs up to taft, 711, to buy extra drink...ksama ko c jc....ang tatapang!!!!!madaling araw un!!!hehe=) la lng...i miss it na...kelan kya ulet un mauulit?!=)

i'm here ngayon kina addy sa San Pedro...d2 kme nag-sleep over ni jihan....
actually, hindi pa ako n22log...it's already 6:39..... in that long hours i am awake, ang daming nangyari and ang dami kong na-discover and na-realize...

sa simula ng pagpunta namin d2, mejo kagulo....it's already 5:30 na,pero wla pa ring concrete plans kung tuloy ba o hindi... in fact, i brought my things na sa school ready to go home na sa batangas...eh un, meant tlga na 2muloy pa rin kme, kht na wla akong load and mega pasakay na ako ng jeep going buendia when i read addy's txt na tuloy.... so i went back sa dorm with my tons of stuff and giant bags...

on our way, ang dami naming napagkwnetuhang 3...parang ang tagal naming hindi nagkausap well in fact eh halos lagi kme nagkikita....basta...peo sa bus, mejo nakatulog kme...buti nlng at gumana ang biological clock ni addy at nagising xa when we're near na....

pagbaba ng bus, sumalubong smen ang npakabangong usok ng mga inihaw....jihan bought isaw and isa pang malaking isaw...ako, i bought dugo and tenga ng baboy!!!in fairness, masarap xa ha!!! then we bought some junk foods sa value point. ..but we're in a hurry sa full house.... hehe

pagdating nmin, nood kme full house...tpos after, prepared dinner...cna jhan and addy ang nag slice ng mga kelangan for our dinner and un, niluto ko na....i cooked giniling na pork with tomato sauce....=) we ate our dinner 11:00pm....xe nman, mas mahaba pa ang daldal sa paggagawa....hehe=)

super food trip tlga....then after linisin ang kusina, we watched FOOLS RUSH IN....grabe, ang ganda ng movie!!!!!! and that movie made me realized a lot of things...basta ang ganda!!!!!=)

then after, when we realized wla nang mggwa, surf nlng sa net...ako e2, hanggang ngayon....ang daming nangyari sa cyberspace grabe!!!!!! e2 at alam ko na kung pano gamitin ang blog ko tlga....thanks to you ADDY!!!!!! she's so soooo great tlga sa computer works!!!! idol!!!!! nag-upload ako ng new photos sa friendster and edited my profile.... and un, may mga nalaman akong ayoko nang isipin at maguguluhan lang ako.... at first, nalungkot ako....but i told myself, instead na magpatalo ako sa lungkot, di ko nlng iisipin...total, hindi ko hawak ang "situation" so wala akong karapatan..... aun, konting tugtog lng ng guitar para nmn kht ppno eh mabawasan ang lungkot....hanggang sa nawala na nung nag-net na ako....

antok na pla ako.... it's very early na...tama na!!!!

kay addy and jihan: thanks a bunchie!!!!! addy, sa pagpapatulog samin d2 sa house!!!!=)

KWENTO NG KA-CORNY-HAN

mga babaeng walang magawa....



....nagpose lng sa harap ng camera.......





nag-iisip kung ano ang gagawin para may magawa.......



....pero sa kakaisip.....





biglang nakatulog!!!!! (-_-) zzzzz......



nang nag-REM na sila.......





sa first chapter ng kanilang dream.....



nanaginip sila ng something scary......



kung si Freud ang tatanungin, ano kaya ang kanyang isasagot sa dream interpretation na ito?!...



balik sa kwento.....


sa 3 hours, that is, 2nd REM nila......

ang scary thing ay biglang naging nakakatawa!!!!!



di kaya malito si Freud sa panaginip ng dalawang babaeng ito?




tama ang lokohan.....







gumising nalang at mag-pose ulet sa camera......



those who risked their credibility: keg and addy

U-Turn - It's You

I look inside my crystal ball of desire
And know why rapid beats my heart
I see the spark, I feel the flame of the fire
Letting me know love wants to start
No more playing around
No more waiting around for the special one to come
No more wearing a frown
No more tears coming down 'cause I know what I want
And I want what I know

It's you
Nobody needs to tell me so
It's you, it's you, you're that angel sent from heaven above
It's you, nobody needs to tell me so
It's you, you're that angel sent from heaven above for me
for you and you for me
If only I had not waited I would have picked the wrong one
If only I had not waited my life would be undone
If only I had not waited I would have picked the wrong one
If only I had not waited for you

I look behind and what I sight is the mire
So very lonely was my heart
I look ahead I hear the sound of the choir
Singing that love will never part
No more hearing the sound of the rain coming down
No more I can't see the sun
No more hurting for fun 'cause the moment has come
When I know what I want
And I want what I know

It's you
Nobody needs to tell me so
It's you, it's you, you're the angel sent from heaven above
It's you, nobody needs to tell me so
It's you, it's you, you're that angel sent from heaven above for me
for you and you for me
If only I had not waited I would have picked the wrong one
If only I had not waited my life would be undone
If only I had not waited I would have picked the wrong one
If only I had not waited for you

>>>i really like this song the moment i've seen U2 perform this sa myx..... the song gives the message of waiting for the right person.... the lines complement each other... it clears the significance of the virtue of patience in the biggest and perhaps the oldest game in the world: LOVE......<<<

signs??? is it a good thing or a work of evil? when we ask for "signs" about some stuff, are we really testing God? or does it imply that this is what God really wants to tell us? some say not all "signs" are from God....sometimes, this is used as the evil's way to get us!!!
i would like to share, a certain incident that occurred not so long ago...
i'm the type of girl with confustion with regards to signs...sometimes i ask for signs, but in small decisions lang, like, i want a sign if i shoould go or not, if i should buy this or not....but once in my life, i just tried, asking for signs, for the very first time, about someone....=)
it happened for 3 consecutive times, and on the 4th time....=)
on the first day, as i was doing my job in my work, i just joked, that if in the 3rd time of the random selection of envelopes, and i picked that particular envelope (which i would not be emphasizing), it could mean something (that is related to that someone!)....and so, for that 3rd pick, poof!!!!! it met the "criteria" i was asking... of course, i just thought it's a coincidence...=)
the next day, in a mass i attended, where i finally told my self that i would make a sacrifice and that sacrifice is not to think of "someone" often..... later i found out, he also attended the same mass.....at the same time!!! poof again!!!!
that night, as i was reflecting on the things that happened for the entire day (owz!!!!), i suddenly thought, again with my playful mind, "if the next day and i saw him and we're on the same shade of shirt, it really means something..."...howver, i did not emphasized on that something...thinking that be it positive or negative, i'll be a good sport.....and so, the next day, i really did not pay attention on which shirt i'll wear,(may be unconscious, i was aware that it is not the typical color of shirt "someone" is wearing).....and so, in the afternoon that i saw him......he wears the exact shade of shirt as mine.....i was nervous that time...what could that mean?!!!!
for sometime, those incidents really bothered me....i didn't know if it's a good or bad thing..... i was confused....however, as days go buy, i did not think of it anymore....i do not want to entertain the idea of the sign!
for the 4th sign, whch actually made me think na lang na it's void...wla lang....i just thought of whether txting him or not....but then, since i saw him that day, i decided to txt hm n lng din....but, i got no reply....so that's it!!!!
right now, it's not anymore a big deal! of course it is still, i won't write it here....=)
i jsut trust God and my faith!=)

- of course, may summer classes po ako this summer....ambisyosa kc, gusto pahirapan ang sarili, kukuha ng chem!!!haha!!=)
- at dahil ako lang mag-isa ang kukuha ng chem within my group of frenz sa block, eh di karirin na!!!!
- i also want to gain more friends....cguro nmn may magiging pwendship ako sa class na mpupunthan ko, db? (i hope so!)
- mag-duty!!!! para khit papano, aside from my acads, eh may OADAA nmn akong mpapagkaabalahan...and at the same time, i'm earning din!!!hehe=)
- mag-swimming!!!!!!hay, kahit ganito na ang kulay ko, i still don't forbid my self na magswimming at lalong MAG-PAITIM sa ilalim ng araw,,,basta lang enjoy ever lang ha!!!
- improve my reading skills!!!hehe=) nais kong makapag-basa ng mga novels and other books!!! so far tpos ko na ang message in the bottle by nicholas sparks, and i'm starting on the stree lawyer by john grisham....
- oh, i want to go to Lawit Dila with my cuzins....mejo ang tagal na rin since i went there..around 3years ago....whew, i tell you, as the name implies, tlgang lalawit ang dila mo when you go there xe kelngan mong bumaba ng bundok to go there..then para maka-uwi, aakyatin mo ang same bundok!!!peo ang saya!!!clear ang water..taal lake ung body of water na un!=)
- i want to engage in making bracelets and anklets and necklaces and earings na din...out of beads...so far, nakagawa na ako for my self ng anklet!!!=)
- gumimik and hang out with friends, old and new!! bay walk will do, pero sana nmn, may mas bago db?!=)
- maging kitikitxt at abusuhin ang serbisyo ng SUN....ramdam ko na malaking pakinabang sa akin ng 24/7 ng sun xe wla akong ksama sa room ko sa dorm for this summer, so bored ako and maghahanap ng kausap, and syempre, sa text!!!mabuti nlng at madami akong SUN friends....=)
- gusto ko din mag-try mag baby sit!!!!ung pamangkin ko sa kabilang bahay, eh lagi ko nmn nalalaro un eh...tpos ung isa pang baby, ung baby bro niya na inaanak ko nmn, aus din alagaan...oh, i'm excited in the arrival of the new angel of the family, si Shandie Felicity...aka "kitkat"....ang baby ni ate!!!=)
- matagal2 na din pla akong di nakakapag-bike...pano nmn, eh along national hi-way ang aming kabahayan...sana, makapag-bike ulet ako!!=)
- gusto kong matutong mag-drive (khit na wla akong kotse)..haha!!corny!:-p
- mag GALLERA on May7 with ate ehlen, dennise, CEO, and co...sana lang di ako toxic nun db?!=<
*****un pa lang so far...nag-dagan ko nalng to pag may naisip pa ako!!!=)

gosh!!!!i just realized, wla nang chance for me to become CS...sad but true... i got my grades in 4 of my sbjects...and talagang ang bababa....compared to other blockmates q, matataas naman cla, and has the possiblility of making it to CS..... for instance, c meme, well, it's a givn thing na naman coz he's matalino tlga...mga grades ko so far ay 1.5 sa psych150, 2.25 socio102, 2.5 socsci res and 1.75 socsci150....khit may 2 subjcts pa akong di nkukuhang grades, eh ung remaining namn eh impossible na magbgay ng mataas....basically, ang nkukuhang grades dun eh 2 and below....kaya un!!!hay!!!so sad...
well, tanggap ko naman...cgurp, khit kinarir ko ang acads ko, i knew hindi lahat umaayon sa aking kagustuhan...isipin ko nlng, may reason kung bkt to nangyayari.....maybe pina-realize sa akin na i should strive for the better...cguro last sem i've given my best shot, but maybe, there's still more that i can give....more that i can do...i'm reationalizing the situation in here, but if i'll allow my self to be defeated by the loneliness and depression, what will happen to me right?! i would rather choose to be happy even though i did not achieve my goal for this sem...there's always a next time...and i rest assured to my self that next time, should i say, next sem, i will achieve what i want..it just so happen that i've been to lax, or that, i've been inconsistent with my habits... this incident would inspire me to work harder.... and also made me realized that i need to have a consistent study habits...
FRIENDLY SELF REMINDER: KEG, ALWAYS GIVE YOUR BEST SHOT AND AT THE SAME TIME, NEVER DEPRIVE YOUR SELF WITH ENJOYMENT AND FUN!!!! there are lots of beautiful things in life, so still be able to consider those stuff around you even though you'll somehow change your lifestyle!!!
note: i do not intend to become a geek or nerd or something...i'll just manage my time properly....i'll make sure that i still have my social life....only that, the amount of time i'm giving with my social life will be different this time....if before, i gave too much of my time in socializing and parties and the likes, this time, i'll balance everything... i want to prove that i can also be an achiever, like other people!!!!=) this is a big challenge for me!!!!! so go GHURL!!!!!!:-p

ang cute cute nmn ng blog koh...hehehe=) dahil to kay ady!!! xa ang nag-design ng blog ko....para naman daw ganahan ako mag-blog!!! hehehe=) thinkyow baby ads!!!!ur so great!!! ang galing.....=)
nyweiz, last weekend, grabe, super chikahan kami ng aking ina...pilit akong pinapaamin kung may bf na ba daw c tami....xempre, mega deny ang lola mo....eh wala naman tlga eh...ano bang mgagawa ko??eion, nung wla na xang napiga sa akin, ako naman ang in-issue.....sabi ba naman sa akin eh dapt daw dis time, may bf na ako!aba, natawa nalang ako....she keeps on telling me na dapat daw this time meion na akong bf, or should i say, i experienced to be in love na daw...hindi daw ung tipong pag-matanda na ako chaka ako maghahanap...
eh well, ang sagot ko lang dun,hindi ko pa iniisip ung pag-bbf!!! ayoko naman magpaka-plastic na ayaw ko tlga...ang sakin lang eh, hindi ko minamadaling magka-bf....eh c mader,xa na ang nagssbi sakin na mabuti nmn daw na maka-epxerience na ako while still young, in fact, di nmn daw ibig sabihin eh mag-aasawa na ako!!!(helloooww,mag-bf nga la pa sa icp ko, mag-asawa pa kaya!mag-dodoctor pa ako!!whahaha!!!)
she adviced me na pag may nagpakilig na daw sa akin, go for it na daw...eh ang kaso, i'm the type kc na madaling kiligin,peo not for a long time...ung tipong kababawan lang, eh kinikilig na ang lola!ang sabi pa nia, dpat daw, pag may nagppramdam, eh bgyan ko ng chance, di tulad ng gnagawa ko, pag ayaw ko, ayaw ko tlga!!!hihihi...=)
nkktuwa lang, xe wla lang...i did not expect it na manggagaling un sa mom q, considering how strict she was kay ate....naicip ko lang, bka bumabawi lng...hehe=) the funny thing is, when i had breakfast yesterday with my mom and dad, brining-up nnmn nia ung topic, tpos she asked dad kung oki n b daw akong magka-bf..ang sagot ng tatay q: "baka hindi maging doctor si krissy!" hehehe=) peio with pahabol :"pero kung gusto na naman niya eh wla na akong magagawa..kung sa akin lang, ayoko pa...pero siya pa rin ang masusunod!" oh diba how supportive!!!=)
ay basta, kung ako tatanungin,mkhang mtatagalan pa...at matagal pa rin para maging legal si tami magka-bf..ang deal xe sa hz, legal na si tamz magkaron pag meion na ako!haha!!=) i'm liking someone right now, peo humf!!! mlabo rin un!!!chaka crush crushan lang..hehe=) kaya un! goodluck nlng!!!!hehe=)

hay!!!!! im so bored here in oadaa..... i'm all alone....gutom na sobra!!!kya lang kinda lazy to buy my food....wla kc akong ksabay mag-lunch eh...aun!!
last nyt, sbrang kwentuhan lang kme ni jihan tot in my room...sumkinda girl talk!!hehe=) we just talk and talk about different stuff!!! up to 1:30!!!!!
eion.....
after ng duty ko, that's around 5pm, uwi na ako ng Batangas.....hay!!!! finally!!!! (finally nga ba??) wla na kc akong kaperahan para panggastos!!! mxado kc akong nagwaldas ng pera dis week.... esp nung wed...
mega food trip kme ni meme nung lunch time, sa shakeys.... after that, we watched SPONGEBOB the movie....
speaking of SPONGEBOB the movie, whaaaa!!! ang corny!!!!as in!!! may appearance pa ni David Hasselhof... basta!!! if you would love to have a 1 and 1/2 hours of your life full of ka-corny-han, SPOngeboB the movie is the answer!!!