what a very weird feeling i have towards one person... i like him in his absence... but when he's around, i feel nothing special... at times i'll think of him when i don't see him.. but when he's around, he's just like a normal guy friend i have... such a weird thought isn't it? i've known him for a long time, but why do i feel this only now? hay..just a girly confusion again...and i don't like it...arg!

i'm excited for Shrek the Third!!!!! wheeepeeeeh!!! i am a fan... hmmmmm... haha ^_^ ok then, i need to go back to my thesis stuff.... finally i have the initiative to work on my 1st draft! haha ^_^

i am an addict! for the past few days, i had very unproductive days of my life.. the worst, i guess... i did not go home because of such addiction, have to be awake until 5 am, and all focused on the computer... darn! i was able to finish watching Princess Hours in youtube! each time an episode ends, i could not resist on watching the next.. and so, i was not able to do anything besides that... nor, i did not touch a single of my school stuff!!! NAKAKASIRA NG BUHAY!!!! whaaaaaah!!!! more than that, after Princess Hours, i suddenly become curious on It Started With A Kiss.. i watched few episodes of it on ABS-CBN.. and i really find the guy cute... hehehe... i like the character maybe... and he's really good looking!!!! whaaaah! what's happening to me.. i need to fight this addiction.. possibly, this is a great sacrifice for me... i need to do more important things, especially these days, that there are lots of activities coming up... there's the BESTSOC election ( a relief for me knowing there's someone who would replace my position thank God), the Campus Tour (which i feel excited at the same time a little worried, but i believe with God's help, it would be successful), my med application with the NMAT result to expect anytime from now.. i really pray that i may have a positive result of it.. the 1st step and the last chance of entering UP Med or better med schools... after all, He revealed me something a year ago about my med education.. and now, after knowing my GWA, which is just 0.03 points away from cum laude, i find hope.. as what a brother told me, just claim His revelation... and that's what i am doing, right from the moment i started fixing my medical educ... and so there's my academics, though few months left, i am still a student... and of course, thesis.. i am more inspired to work harder on my thesis after knowing my class standing... work hard!!!!!

i am preoccupied now.. and what bothers me is that i do not feel any pressure.. i could not find the sense of initiative.. i would rather appreciate if i know where to start.. but in times like these, i do not know.. i need guidance.. before i went to mass this afternoon, i prayed that may He give me the right words to inspire me to work on my responsibilities piled up... i thought may be i just lack God's words... what strike me is "of difference forms of service, but for only One Lord"... something like that.. well, i would interpret it as if my piled up works and responsibilities covers my service... and that i should do it for Him, give my best shot, work harder, and should start NOW!!!!

i have to pause on the internet addiction for a while.. to focus better.. to work harder.. and to avoid distractions... perhaps this week, i would face lots of temptations.. and i am pretty sure that upon the arrival of my uncle from US for a vacation, there are gimmicks to expect.. so in order to attend to the pleasure, i should not cram on my works..


oh my! Lord help me please.. take me away from all the temptations.. and that i may be able to give my best shot..

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some of the best memories in our 4 years together...

youtube youtube youtube! how come you're not cooperating, huh? in times like this that i am so bored, feels like going out, but because of the rain, makes me feel more lazy.. in fact, we are on for Quiapo this afternoon, to do a very wonderful ethnography research for our Comparative Religion subject.. i could have been watching Princess Hours this moment... hay... i would want to finish it na.. i already know the story, but i'm after the kilig scenes of Shin Goon and CG.. haha... yes, i am an addict, and i could not do anything about it.. hehe...

actually, i just woke up.. right after i arrive here in my dormitory, past 1pm, i fell asleep right away.. i did not get enough sleep kc last night.. we had our election execom meeting! thank God, in two weeks, execom '06-'07 will already have successors.. meaning, our we could concentrate more on other matters, like THESIS... ahem!

THESIS..THESIS... jan 23 is my deadline for my 1st draft! how i wish i could be done with my data gathering, which i think run for more than 6 months already.. argh! i know i could do it! i need to graduate noh...

oops, my groupmates already texted me.. they are waiting for me in our department.. i think i better get going, and start interviewing the people from Quiapo... hihihi.. anyweiz youtube, thanks for cooperating.. it's better you're under repair, so i could easily step out in front of the PC.. hehehe

this is my 1st blog entry as a 21 y/o lady... i'm already on a VERY legal age, meaning, i could already get married even without consent...j/ke... nah! that' s very far from my plans and my dreams...

age isn't actually a big deal.. the important is how i feel... and i'm proud to say i feel so young still.. haha!

actually, this bday celeb is very different from my previous bdays... well, every bday celeb naman is different from the other.. well, something's missing i guess... a sad feeling is there somehow, knowing a very good friend of mine is currently suffering... but as what optimistic people say (like me), HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE...

a lot of people greet me happy bday, personally, friendster, ym, email, and text msg... and a simple greeting already a reason for me to smile... i had a lunch date with my tita, together with my sister, at Friday's rob place... actually, it was my first time to meet my tita, the current girlfriend of my uncle. she happens to be a doctor, and we just chit-chat about med life... gosh, i'm got more excited... hehe... then, i have my college friends, who suprised me, giving me a GUITAR, by not handing it to me directly, but they still have to leave it sa dorm.. so i was very surprised when i arrived.. then i also got a book that's my genre... the title's WHO MOVED MY CHEESE... i love reading those stuff kasi...then my yfc brothers and sisters, prepared a bunch of letters, though i did not see much of them that day, but i already
felt their presence through the letters... my dormates, aside form waking me up 12 am on the 5th of jan, having a simple celebration of cheezy volcano pizza and pepsi, we were also together at MOA to watch the pyro olympics... whaaaah!!! i really love watching fireworks display!!!!! then after that, we walked from moa all the way to blue wave and hang out until 2am... and we proved that we do not love walking much, that we also walked from blue wave until madocs college to look for a cab....

so that's my day... i am a year older, and i would want to make a difference.. for my self and for other people as well... hay... my greatest bday wish... is to be admitted to a good med school, and that starts from the nmat result, which i will be receiving anytime this january... whoooooh....