hay... john lloyd.. bakit ka kasi pinanganak na gwapo???

hihih.. of all the local actors, john lloyd is whom i got a biggest crush on... he seems so nice, so funny, mabango, mabait.. and the ideal boyfriend who got sense of humor and can make you laugh when you're sad.. or even when you're mad.. haha^_^ he's got nice smile, body?, and very talented.. haha^_^ and he may be liking morena girls... *ahem*

if i'll be asked who would be the artista i am dying to see in person.. who else.. but loydie.. hihihi^_^

i finally got my thoughts.. 5 hours after since i started getting my thoughts, only now that i got motivated to start.. it's 3:16 am.. and still im awake.. good thing though coz i finally caught my brother jerrik online.. and even saw him via webcam.. then one more thing, called him on the celfone.. (thanks to SUN Cellular for a very low oversease call rate of P5/minute--->nagpromote pa daw)... i'm watching them right now via web cam as they eat their breakfast..

what am i supposed to write about again? well, finally i made a decision.. after being stressed for the past week of deciding whether to go or stay, i finally chose to stay in my dorm, despite all the struggles i faced in the past and the convenience that awaits me as i move to another place.. i even spent 2 and a half sticks of cigars this week to counteract the stress i have been..

i came to a point of 90-10 decision.. 90% move out, 10% stay.. and even the night before i met tami, that was wednesday night, i had 100% move out decision...i wrote down my goals.. and the factors affecting, be it good or bad, on achieving my goals..

but then the next day, i met with my sister, accompanied her to trinoma to buy for her grad dress.. then over lunch she told me stuff about the life my parents have in US.. and i realized it really wasn't easy.. i felt guilty then, the fact that they are working hard, and they have to support a more expensive housing for me.. i would be selfish, as i thought.. perhaps the best thing that i could do for them is to save the best that i could.. and not to give them too much expenses here for me.. if i would compute the possible expenses if i would move to another dorm, that would be around 4K=$100.. though my mom told me that they would do their best to sustain my housing needs and all other needs for my medical education, it became a personal decision for me to stay to the old place wherein they have to pay only 2750.. the remaining 1250 could have been my savings so that in case of emergencies, i would not need to disturb them anymore.. or even they can use the balance for their own expense abroad, right? i told my mom that i will take the next step of deciding if i would still want to move out when the time comes that they are already stable in US.. and when they finally bought a house.. i am willing to wait then.. i want to live comfortable here in the Philippines only when they are comfortable abroad... it really was tami that i have waited to find my answers.. and another thing, even found a verse in the Bible that at some point affected my decision to stay....

i knew that when it comes to family involvement, i become too emotional.. i knew that i am willing to give up anything for my family.. more now that they are giving up a lot of things for me, and the best thing that i could do to help them is to minimize whatever expense i have here...

hay.. i hope my false-alarm roomates steph and crysel would understand my decision.. now i have to face the shame of backing out to my original decision.. and i even have to talk to the owner of the dormitory i am supposed to live at..

i may not know the effect of my decision particularly in my studies.. but whatever it takes, i will do my very best to perfom better in my academics on my sophomore year.. but one thing i realized after these confusions.. that my housemates right now is really a family..they are there to replace the absence i feel on my immediate family.. i felt at some point that they do not want me to leave.. and i knew that i have a value for them.. whatever it takes, my housemates in Lacson St. would be for keeps forever.. ^_^

"When you get a boyfriend, you become the best friend and the best friend becomes the second best friend." - Blair Waldorf, GOSSIP GIRL

i heard they'll start airing season2 this april 29.. tama ba?^_^

my life in first year medical school won't be this fun and exciting if not for the people who have been there at my side.. in close or even far distance... now that i am off for vacation, i thought of reminiscing.. being stressed for the past few days of coming up on a decision i am having a hard time deciding.. what should i do?

6 months habit

at the start of the Holidays, there was a surprise
under the same aroma that stimulates our minds
perfect place to enhance our thinking
who would thought it would be a start of something great?

on a regular basis we get to hang out
and got to know you better
for four years we have known each other's existence
only now that i get to see quite a bit of you

my struggles were made easier
and learning has been quite fun
in times i felt tired
a small talk in between i already found relaxing

it must be a habit as what i would define
but a habit that kept me going
fighting over the battle on the jungle
giving me direction til i reach the end

and now that it have come to the end
i felt everything has changed
the old laughters and talks were gone
and i'm sure i am missing them all

as the 6 months of habit has passed
i am having nostalgic thoughts
recalling memories
doing my very best to maintain what we used to have

it's a sad reality though
that the experience of being with the habit
is not the same as it used to be
that even the advancement of communication is no use

at first the absence was quite hard to face
but then i get used to the feeling and realized
that the joy i used to feel for the past 6 months
was just a habit after all

who knows what will happen
after you half a quarter
if you will be back by my side
with that, i will wait....

i have a new baby...

arg! this is because of my housemate jc... she infected me with this addiction...

hay... im addicted watching Hana Kimi... for sure ill be having sleepless nights again doing the marathon watching this week...hihihi... this is the effect of not being busy this vacation..

i would definitely want to meet you in person, Wu Chun... ^_^

baduy na kung baduy! gwapo nmn! ^_^

i received this through email from my friend.. and i thought of sharing this to more people who wished to be inspired to succeed in life...

i began to admire you, Mr. Gokongwei..... ^_^

JOHN GOKONGWEI: THE FIRST UKAY-UKAY DEALER!


Speech of John Gokongwei before Ateneo Graduates.

I wish I were one of you today, instead of a 77-year-old man, giving a speech you will probably forget when you wake up from your hangover tomorrow. You may be surprised I feel this way. Many of you are feeling fearful and apprehensive about your future. You are thinking that, perhaps, your Ateneo diploma will not mean a whole lot in the future in a country with too many problems. And you are probably right. You are thinking that our country is slipping-no, sliding. Again, you may be right. Twenty years ago, we were at par with countries like Thailand , Malaysia , and Singapore .

Today, we are left way behind. You know the facts. Twenty years ago, the per capita income of the Filipino was 1,000 US dollars. Today, it's 1,100 dollars. That's a growth of only ten percent in twenty years. Meanwhile, Thailand 's per capita income today is double ours; Malaysia , triple ours; and Singapore , almost twenty times ours. With globalization coming, you know it is even more urgent to wake up. Trade barriers are falling, which means we will have to compete harder. In the new world, entrepreneurs will be forced to invest their money where it is most efficient. And that is not necessarily in the Philippines . Even for Filipino entrepreneurs, that can be the case.

For example, a Filipino brand like Maxx candy can be manufactured in Bangkok-where labor, taxes, power and financing are cheaper and more efficien t-and then exported to other ASEAN countries. This will be a common scenario-if things do not change. Pretty soon, we will become a nation that buys everything and produces practically nothing. We will be like the prodigal son who took his father's money and spent it all. The difference is that we do not have a generous father to run back to. But despite this, I am still very excited about the future. I will tell you why later. You have been taught at the Ateneo to be "a person for others." Of course, that is noble: To serve your countrymen. Question is: How? And my answer is: Be an entrepreneur! You may think I am just a foolish man talking mundane stuff when the question before him is almost philosophical. But I am being very thoughtful here, and if I may presume this about myself, being patriotic as well.

Entrepreneurship is the answer. We need young people who will find the idea, grab the opportunity, take risk, and set aside comfort to set up businesses that will provide jobs. But why? What are jobs? Jobs are what allow people to feel useful and build their self-esteem. Jobs make people productive members of the community. Jobs make people feel they are worthy citizens. And jobs make a country worthy players in the world market. In that order of things, it is the entrepreneurs who have the power to harness the creativity and talents of others to achieve a common good. This should leave the world a better place than it was.

Let me make it clear: Job creation is a priority for any nation to move forward. For example, it is the young entrepreneurs of Malaysia , Thailand , and Singapore who created the dynamic businesses that have propelled their countries to the top. Young people like yourselves. Meanwhile, in the Philippines , progress is slow. Very little is new. Hardly anything is fresh. With a few exceptions, the biggest companies before the war-like PLDT, Ayala, and San Miguel-are still the biggest companies today. All right, being from the Ateneo, many of you probably have offers from these corporations already.

You may even have offers from JG Summit. I say: Great! Take these offers, work as hard as you can, learn everything these companies can teach-and then leave! If you dream of creating something great, do not let a 9-to-5 job-even a high-paying one-lull you into a complacent, comfortable life. Let that high-paying job propel you toward entrepreneurship instead. When I speak of the hardship ahead, I do not mean to be skeptical but realistic. Even you Ateneans, who are famous for your eloquence, you cannot talk your way out of this one. There is nothing to do but to deal with it. I learned this lesson when, as a 13-year-old, I lost my dad. Before that, I was like many of you: a privileged kid.

I went to Cebu 's best school; lived in a big house; and got free entrance to the Vision, the largest movie house in Cebu , which my father owned. Then my dad died, and I lost all these. My family had become poor-poor enough to split my family. My mother and five siblings moved to China where the cost of living was lower. I was placed under the care of my Grand Uncle Manuel Gotianuy, who put me through school. But just two years later, the war broke out, and even my Uncle Manuel could no longer see me through. I was out in the streets-literally. Looking back, this time was one of the best times of my life. We lost everything, true, but so did everybody! War was the great equalizer. In that setting, anyone who was willing to size up the situation, use his wits, and work hard, could make it! It was every man for himself, and I had to find a way to support myself and my family. I decided to be a market vendor. Why? Because it was something that I, a 15-year-old boy in short pants, could do.

I started by selling simple products in the palengke half an hour by bike from the city. I had a bicycle. I would wake up at five in the morning, load thread, soap and candles into my bike, and rush to the palengke. I would rent a stall for one peso a day, lay out my goods on a table as big as this podium, and begin selling. I did that the whole day. I sold about twenty pesos of goods every day. Today, twenty pesos will only allow you to send twenty text messages to y our crush, but 63 years ago, it was enough to support my family. And it left me enough to plow back into my small, but growing, business. I was the youngest vendor in the palengke, but that didn't faze me. In fact, I rather saw it as an opportunity. Remember, that was 63 years and 100 pounds ago, so I could move faster, stay under the sun more, and keep selling longer than everyone else.

Then, when I had enough money and more confidence, I decided to travel to Manila from Cebu to sell all kinds of goods like rubber tires. Instead of my bike, I now traveled on a batel-a boat so small that on windless days, we would just float there. On bad days, the trip could take two weeks! During one trip, our batel sank! We would have all perished in the sea were it not for my inventory of tires. The viajeros were happy because my tires saved their lives, and I was happy because the viajeros, by hanging on to them, saved my tires. On these long and lonely trips I had to entertain myself with books, like Gone With The Wind. After the war, I had s aved up 50,000 pesos. That was when you could buy a chicken for 20 centavos and a car for 2,000 pesos. I was 19 years old.

Now I had enough money to bring my family home from China. Once they were all here, they helped me expand our trading business to include imports. Remember that the war had left the Philippines with very few goods. So we imported whatever was needed and imported them from everywhere-includin g used clothes and textile remnants from the United States . We were probably the first ukay-ukay dealers here.

Then, when I had gained more experience and built my reputation, I borrowed money from the bank and got into manufacturing. I saw that coffee was abundant, and Nescafe of Nestle was too expensive for a country still rebuilding from the war, so my company created Blend 45. That was our first branded hit. And from there, we had enough profits to launch Jack and Jill. From one market stall, we are now in nine core businesses-includin g retail, real estate, publishing, petrochemicals, textiles, banking, food manufacturing, Cebu Pacific Air and Sun Cellular.

When we had shown success in the smaller businesses, we were able to raise money in the capital markets-through IPOs and bond offerings-- and then get into more complex, capital-intensive enterprises. We did it slow, but sure. Success doesn't happen overnight. It's the small successes achieved day by day that build a company. So, don't be impatient or focused on immediate financial rewards. I only started flying business class when I got too fat to fit in the economy seats. And I even wore a used overcoat while courting my wife-it came from my ukay-ukay business.

Thank God Elizabeth didn't mind the mothball smell of my coat or maybe she wouldn't have married me. Save what you earn and plow it back. And never forget your families! Your parents deni ed themselves many things to send you here. They could have traveled around the world a couple of times with the money they set aside for your education, and your social life, and your comforts. Remember them-and thank them. When you have families of your own, you must be home with them for at least one meal everyday. I did that while I was building my company. Now, with all my six children married, I ask that we spend every Sunday lunch together, when everything under the sun is discussed. As it is with business, so it is with family.

There are no short cuts for building either one. Remember, no short cuts. Saint Ignatius of Loyola, your patron saint, and founder of this 450-year old organization I admire, described an ideal Jesuit as one who "lives with one foot raised." I believe that means someone who is always ready to respond to opportunities. Saint Ignatius knew that, to build a successful organization, he needed to recruit and educate men who were not afraid of change but were in fact excited by it. In fact, the Jesuits were one of the earliest practitioners of globalization. As early as the 16th century, upon reaching a foreign country, they compiled dictionaries in local languages, like Tamil and Vietnamese, so that they could spread their message in the local language.

In a few centuries, they have been able to spread their mission in many countries through education. The Jesuits have another quote. "Make the whole world your house" which means that the ideal Jesuit must be at home everywhere. By adapting to change , but at the same time staying true to their beliefs, the Society of Jesus has become the long-lasting and successful organization it is today and has made the world their house.

So, let's live with one foot raised in facing the next big opportunity: globalization. Globalization can be your greatest enemy. It will be your downfall if you are too afraid and too weak to fight it out. But it can also be your biggest ally. With the Asian Free Trade agreement and tariffs near zero, your market has grown from 80 million Filipinos to half a billion Southeast Asians. Imagine what that means to you as an entrepreneur if you are able to find a need and fill it. And imagine, too, what that will do for the economy of our country! Yes, our government may not be perfect, and our economic environment not ideal, but true entrepreneurs will find opportunities anywhere. Look at the young Filipino entrepreneurs who made it. When I say young-and I'm 77, remember-I am talking about those in their 50s and below.

Tony Tan of Jollibee, Ben Chan of Bench, Rolando Hortaleza of Splash, and Wilson Lim of Abensons. They're the guys who weren't content with the 9-to-5 job, who were willing to delay their gratification and comfort, and who created something new, something fresh. Something Filipinos are now very proud of. They all started small but now sell their hamburgers, T-shirts and cosmetics in Asia, America , and the Middle East In doing so, these young Filipino entrepreneurs created jobs while doing something they were passionate about. Globalization is an opportunity of a lifetime-for you. And that is why I want to be out there with you instead of here behind this podium-perhaps too old and too slow to seize the opportunities you can. Let me leave you with one last thought. Trade barriers have fallen.

The only barriers left are the ba rriers you have in your mind. So, Ateneans, heed the call of entrepreneurship. With a little bit of will and a little bit of imagination, you can turn this crisis into your patriotic moment-and truly become a person for others. "Live with one foot raised and make the world your house."

To this great University, my sincerest thanks for this singular honor conferred on me today. To the graduates, congratulations and Godspeed. "Ad Majorem Dei Gloriam". Thank you.

how should i describe my feeling right now??? how should i start huh???... all i can say...

im sooooo HAPPY.. there are so many reasons why should i be happy.. haha...

hmmmm.. finally first year is over... ^_^ it's such a blessing that i will not be removing any of my subjects today.. now i can avidly enjoy my vacation.. i am just so thankful to the people who have been there since i started my first year up to this point... i could not mention you all, coz there are a number of you guys.. ^_^ basta u know who you are.. people who have been with me for the past 10 months.. who accompanied me in my journey to the field of medicine. and people who gave me inspiration to give my very very best.. basta... thanks a lot!

then.. hmm... someone's celebrating his bday today... hihih.. i am just happy coz he replied, though it's a reply with no meaning.. but i am just happy that he knows me... hay.. call that crazy... i admit, it's called an unconditional blank.. a blank coz i don't know how to define it at all.. if it's love, i'm pretty sure it's not romantic. basta i am happy with small things happening around.. ^_^ what am i talking about? either i, myself, do not know at all.. he may just be there to serve as an inspiration.. i am not expecting anything in return from him naman.. it's enough that he keeps on inspiring me even though he's not aware of it... it's enough that he makes me smile in small things about him.... hay am i stupid??? nah! i am just being moved by this guy, who could be a dream, the ideal one.. but i am into reality, that he's just a dream.. and i am not allowing my reality to be affected by this dream.. i still live on with this fact..^_^

way to go friends.. and HAPPY VACATION..

~~~signing off FIRST YEAR...

it's freaking me out... prolonging my agony.. waiting for results.. i've been receiving news, however i don't have the chance to see them by myself.. i've been having weird feelings, paranoia, and at the same time, doing my best to keep my faith that i'll do good in my first year.. only thing that i am holding on to right now, giving me positive thoughts and allowing me to live a normal life despite the tensions of waiting is my faith in God...

oh Lord, please grant me what my heart desires..