"more than hope... more than faith... this is true... this is fate ... and together we see it coming"... high school musical trip huh?? apparently, breaking free's the song that's currently playing....

i just had a very wonderful day... woke up 9am this morning since i ain't got any class... then headed to school for my thesis proposal.. *whaaah! thesis!!!* but perhaps the sad thing this day is that i failed some of my responsibilities, like the certificate for our facilitator, which i failed to let the dean of our college sign... ^sigh^

in the afternoon then, i spent it with my roomate in mr. donuts, my study area next to wendy's taft!*hihi* at least i gained some knowledge on physics... the forces, force diagram, x and y components of the forces, tension, restoring forces, friction (though i haven't understood mch of friction yet), and many more... we left the mall around 6pm already... after that, i headed to mcdo p.gil for a service meeting/household... with me was my sister tami.. though she only witnessed some of it (coz we're late), i'm glad to introduce her for the nth time to the yfc peeps...

and the highlight of the day... it's Cristy's 18th bday!!! HAPPY BDAY SIS!!! ^_^ there was some sort of surprise for her... the brothers gave her flowers and sang a song for her... then of course, there's lots of food... too sad for me that i wasn't able to appreciate any food lately due to my colds... my tastebuds are kinda malfunctioning...hehe^_^ i love this night i tell! ^_^

there's a super typhoon that starts with the letter R.. ok... "reming"... our discovery camp's postponed tom...i should have had a very long weekend...but the typhoon changed the sched... hopefully not our teambuilding as well... i just pray hard that the typhoon will not be destructive as milenyo... and would not cause much damage... hay...

with this, i just lift up everything to God...

it's weekend once again! ^_^

happy weekend everyone^_^

1:57 am... november 23, 2006... it's the usual thing to expect me still awake at this hour.. sometimes even 4am, i still have the energy... but the thing is, my eyes get tired, staying for hours in front of the computer... darn! and yet, i am not wearing my glasses (i left it kasi sa house)...

november 23... a significant day... could be the day of threatening education for the Filipinos.. hours ago i've been receiving text passes saying tomorrow will be a black shirt day and walk out from classes... due to the greatest issue the university is currently facing.. the Tuition Fee Increase or the 300% TFI!!!

in my 4 years of stay in UP, i haven't attended a single MOB or rally... honestly, it's not my nature to go out on streets and rally... but this time, if it calls for one, i would probably consider. or if not, i would want to give any participation that i may be capable with... coz it's an issue of the whole up system, and what bothers me most is losing the opportunity of the next generations who would want to be an iskolar ng bayan, but could not afford the tuition fee... if this is the case, what will be UP's difference with other school? what could make UP a state university, if the less fortunate could not afford, yet they have the brains?

today will be signing of the TFI... and worse, it will be done in UP Visayas, with lesser people, lesser students, no rallies... politics in the Philippines is really dirty.. to the point that even our education gets affected and deprives the poor..

i just pray that fate will favor the up students and the future iskolar ng bayan...if not, then what should we expect with our government in the future? for they have taken away an essential aspect of every individual:
QUALITY EDUCATION....

NO TO TUITION FEE INCREASE!!!!

whaaah!!! it's 2:25 am... and my resting time is extended.. i haven't taken a shower yet... ewwww... i just waited for my sister to wake up and take the shower first... and what am i doing during the waiting hours??? nah... i'm surfing, getting addicted once again on Grey's Anatomy... whaaah!!! i've been looking for new videos for season 3..

hope my sister will finish taking shower asap and tell me to get out of the laptop coz she'll be using this... i want to refresh, and sleep...coz tomorrow, i mean later, i'll be expecting a tough day... though i ain't got classes on wednesdays, i scheduled myself to go to Veterans Memorial Medical Center for my THESIS!!!!!! so i need to restore energy...

but such is a wast of time.. internet is really a temptation NMAT!!!!! whaaah!!! if only i could become a doctor without undergoing the theory learning part.. hay... i'm better in exposures and applications than in theories.. i suck in memorization and stuff... hay... i have to love physics and chem this time... and gain more self discipline to have serious review.... goodluck ^_^

i wanna share how tired yet fulfilling my night was....

i, together with my roomate and sister went to watch the Hillsong Concert... darn it was sooooo much fun!!! with all the praises that filled the stadium, plus the beautiful songs per se, made the night and the tix price worth it... ^^

the cute thing for this night is, i am just so thankful for the privilege of witnessing large crowd united despite the differences and the "stranger" feeling towards each other... on that night, that "stranger" effect vanished, all came up with a common denominator through praising our Lord... seating on the General Admin, though i could barely see the performers (adding up my eye defect, hehe!), but it was a perfect seat to see the whole crowd... how they shout for joy, how they worship Him, how they adore Him, and how they chose to be with Him...

i guess watching the Hillsong United Live in Manila concert was really meant for me.. knowing the news a month ago, i got excited but because of the money matters, i dropped the idea.. then this morning, my roomate, who happens to know about it only today, told me to come with her, paying as of now for my tix.. so before my 5:30 class, i went to rob, in particular to the House of Praise, to inquire forthe tix, unfortunately, SOLD OUT... i texted my friends if by any chance there's a ticketnet outlet in that mall... i inquired in National Bookstore, but their branch does not sell tix.. then went to the Dept Store, 2nd floor, but the ticketworld does not cover that event.. so i was hopeless.. i conditioned my mind of dropping the idea of watching.. telling my self, maybe it's not for me.. but NO! the story does not end here...

it was already 8:10 when i met up with my roomate after texting me that we can avail tix on the venue itself... we took our chances then... and poof!we had our tickets!!! ^_^ the start time is 8pm, but it already started right after we arrived... they just waited for our arrival then... haaha!

rollback to the events, before finally reaching the venue, we met a girl who will also watch the concert, walked with us in Vito Cruz, and even on the concert proper, she was with us... Ellaine, her name, as far as i could remember... i found out late that she's just the same age as ours... maybe i could be even older than her... but cool thing to meet a stranger in certain circumstances... it's good to know we could still trust strangers... and she has good and healthy service, i can tell.... she's a good model of a true believer of God... having work at an early age, she graduated early... and for her, that's the good thing if you have faith...

there was also a talk... the line that striked me: "do not let anyone tell you that it can't be".... just follow wherever God will lead you... if that's want you want, do it... for Him... and in His glory...

so far so good.. i am still certain of where my service could be... in medicine... that's what i want, that's what i desire... so i'll do it! i just want to say, i choose God...it's clear in my head that it's Him that i choose....

my eyes are already falling and my body's just soooo tired... i 'm gonna take a shower after resting, then prepare to go to sleep... hay.. i'm sleeeeeeeeeepppppyyyyyy.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz................ zzzzzzzzzzzz..z

well then... it's 1:27 in the morning... i should be studying at this moment... but sori, this girl here was deprived from the internet for more than a month... when was the last time i visited my blog then? hay... but internet is a temptation.... in lots of ways actually... but the major temptation of it in my life is my schedule for a review in nmat..

speaking of nmat... shux, i only have 3 weeks to go... and until now, i still have NO, literally NO knowledge in physics and chemistry... i do not know how should i answer that parts of the exam... whaaah!!!! no matter how hard it try reading the books and browsing the notes, i still could not appreciate it.. it only makes me feel exhausted... but what should i do??? there are lots of people who are willing to tutor me.. and i hope in this week i could manage to get knowledge in these 2 subjects...

on the other hand, it gives me joy whenever i think that my mom, and well, my family, really are praying for my nmat... my mom even told me that every night it's included in her prayers... and such thought makes me smile.. ^_^ i also have a good friend who patiently tutors me... though she has other concerns, but she provides me time every night to review... and now, thanks to her, i know the CELLS and the CELLULAR DIVISION..... hahaha!!!! ^_^ i also have a good friend from the College of Medicine who gave me a reviewer... he really motivates me to study... and the good thing is, though we only knew each other for a while, but we really jive, especially in our dreams of becoming good doctors someday.... these are just few people i do not want to turn down... that's why i really need to give my best for this... hay! ^_^

nah..i still have to wake up early in the morning later coz i need to go to UST... to file my application... actually, i am excited to know what's waiting for me in med school... all i want is to be a good doctor, coz its where i find my full service... i love touchi,ng the lives of other people, of helping them, most especially those who could not afford to get the help they need... health is one of them... not everybody could afford to see a doctor... but i want to be one of their hopes... its too early to say, but that's how i see my medical career to be... as what my father told me, WAG KANG MANANAGA NG PASYENTE...do not prioritize the career to earn money, bu think first and foremost in helping them... cool... a word coming from my dad... being the future first-doctor of the family, both sides, i know it will be a big help to my family as well... i'm just excited about it... hopefully things will go smoothly.... from the nmat, to my med applications, down to my graduation!!!!

all i need is to believe in Him... i remember, last year, during these days, God revealed me something that made me excited and at the same time, threatened... somehow, i felt that He would help me to go to the medical school i greatly wish for.... during that time, i did not entertain much of the idea, coz, embarrassing as it is, i was praying for someone who would go to that same medical school... but now, i remembered His word... i want to lift up everything to Him.. whatever His plans for me... i would still want to serve, though i'm in a different track of my life... another chapter, but still one service... for Him...

whaaah!!!! is there such a thing as graduation gitters? the fear of not graduating... because of threats such as THESIS!!!????!!!! whaaaah... tomorrow, Tuesday, i have a deadline with my thesis... unfortunately, my SPSS program is not functioning properly... so i could not encode my data... and i could not open my partial data i already encoded before.... whaaah!!! too bad.... i might possibly have sleepless monday night!!! all i hve to do is encode.... goodluck!

another thing, another issue that made worry, though it's one step higher, that is to graduate with honors... well, until now, i'm still kept hanging... too sad... i do not know if i could qualify or not, all depending on the remaining semester... it feels bad to be placed on the boarder of the bridge, not knowing if you could survive, or just fall... that's where i really belong now...


right now, i am happy.. i am happy with my family... with my friends... with my service most especially... i told my self that i will give my best shot of my service in yfc in my senior year... and that no matter how tough things will go for me, i know i have one GOD to hold me tight.... ^_^

and with my love life??? nah.... as always, nothing exciting at all... i am just glad coz God really is answering my prayers, and that i am still holding on to my promise to Him.. when i started my senior year, i prayed that my heart will only be for Him, at least for a year... for 20 years i have remained single, and i am proud of it.. i just prayed that may He grant me the last year of my college life be single still... to give more time to enjoy with my friends, more time for my academics, time for my orgs and other affiliations, and of course, for my service... i am always praying that may He give me NO distractions right now... that He may guard my heart... and He's granting it... i just want to be sure to my self of what my goals are... and thank you that You did not leave me...

catharsis... wow... sign of such deprivation... having no one to talk to at this moment... thanks to the one who invented the blog... for in my silent moments, i'm kept loud.... haha!! ^_^