well then... it's 1:27 in the morning... i should be studying at this moment... but sori, this girl here was deprived from the internet for more than a month... when was the last time i visited my blog then? hay... but internet is a temptation.... in lots of ways actually... but the major temptation of it in my life is my schedule for a review in nmat..
speaking of nmat... shux, i only have 3 weeks to go... and until now, i still have NO, literally NO knowledge in physics and chemistry... i do not know how should i answer that parts of the exam... whaaah!!!! no matter how hard it try reading the books and browsing the notes, i still could not appreciate it.. it only makes me feel exhausted... but what should i do??? there are lots of people who are willing to tutor me.. and i hope in this week i could manage to get knowledge in these 2 subjects...
on the other hand, it gives me joy whenever i think that my mom, and well, my family, really are praying for my nmat... my mom even told me that every night it's included in her prayers... and such thought makes me smile.. ^_^ i also have a good friend who patiently tutors me... though she has other concerns, but she provides me time every night to review... and now, thanks to her, i know the CELLS and the CELLULAR DIVISION..... hahaha!!!! ^_^ i also have a good friend from the College of Medicine who gave me a reviewer... he really motivates me to study... and the good thing is, though we only knew each other for a while, but we really jive, especially in our dreams of becoming good doctors someday.... these are just few people i do not want to turn down... that's why i really need to give my best for this... hay! ^_^
nah..i still have to wake up early in the morning later coz i need to go to UST... to file my application... actually, i am excited to know what's waiting for me in med school... all i want is to be a good doctor, coz its where i find my full service... i love touchi,ng the lives of other people, of helping them, most especially those who could not afford to get the help they need... health is one of them... not everybody could afford to see a doctor... but i want to be one of their hopes... its too early to say, but that's how i see my medical career to be... as what my father told me, WAG KANG MANANAGA NG PASYENTE...do not prioritize the career to earn money, bu think first and foremost in helping them... cool... a word coming from my dad... being the future first-doctor of the family, both sides, i know it will be a big help to my family as well... i'm just excited about it... hopefully things will go smoothly.... from the nmat, to my med applications, down to my graduation!!!!
all i need is to believe in Him... i remember, last year, during these days, God revealed me something that made me excited and at the same time, threatened... somehow, i felt that He would help me to go to the medical school i greatly wish for.... during that time, i did not entertain much of the idea, coz, embarrassing as it is, i was praying for someone who would go to that same medical school... but now, i remembered His word... i want to lift up everything to Him.. whatever His plans for me... i would still want to serve, though i'm in a different track of my life... another chapter, but still one service... for Him...
whaaah!!!! is there such a thing as graduation gitters? the fear of not graduating... because of threats such as THESIS!!!????!!!! whaaaah... tomorrow, Tuesday, i have a deadline with my thesis... unfortunately, my SPSS program is not functioning properly... so i could not encode my data... and i could not open my partial data i already encoded before.... whaaah!!! too bad.... i might possibly have sleepless monday night!!! all i hve to do is encode.... goodluck!
another thing, another issue that made worry, though it's one step higher, that is to graduate with honors... well, until now, i'm still kept hanging... too sad... i do not know if i could qualify or not, all depending on the remaining semester... it feels bad to be placed on the boarder of the bridge, not knowing if you could survive, or just fall... that's where i really belong now...
right now, i am happy.. i am happy with my family... with my friends... with my service most especially... i told my self that i will give my best shot of my service in yfc in my senior year... and that no matter how tough things will go for me, i know i have one GOD to hold me tight.... ^_^
and with my love life??? nah.... as always, nothing exciting at all... i am just glad coz God really is answering my prayers, and that i am still holding on to my promise to Him.. when i started my senior year, i prayed that my heart will only be for Him, at least for a year... for 20 years i have remained single, and i am proud of it.. i just prayed that may He grant me the last year of my college life be single still... to give more time to enjoy with my friends, more time for my academics, time for my orgs and other affiliations, and of course, for my service... i am always praying that may He give me NO distractions right now... that He may guard my heart... and He's granting it... i just want to be sure to my self of what my goals are... and thank you that You did not leave me...
catharsis... wow... sign of such deprivation... having no one to talk to at this moment... thanks to the one who invented the blog... for in my silent moments, i'm kept loud.... haha!! ^_^
speaking of nmat... shux, i only have 3 weeks to go... and until now, i still have NO, literally NO knowledge in physics and chemistry... i do not know how should i answer that parts of the exam... whaaah!!!! no matter how hard it try reading the books and browsing the notes, i still could not appreciate it.. it only makes me feel exhausted... but what should i do??? there are lots of people who are willing to tutor me.. and i hope in this week i could manage to get knowledge in these 2 subjects...
on the other hand, it gives me joy whenever i think that my mom, and well, my family, really are praying for my nmat... my mom even told me that every night it's included in her prayers... and such thought makes me smile.. ^_^ i also have a good friend who patiently tutors me... though she has other concerns, but she provides me time every night to review... and now, thanks to her, i know the CELLS and the CELLULAR DIVISION..... hahaha!!!! ^_^ i also have a good friend from the College of Medicine who gave me a reviewer... he really motivates me to study... and the good thing is, though we only knew each other for a while, but we really jive, especially in our dreams of becoming good doctors someday.... these are just few people i do not want to turn down... that's why i really need to give my best for this... hay! ^_^
nah..i still have to wake up early in the morning later coz i need to go to UST... to file my application... actually, i am excited to know what's waiting for me in med school... all i want is to be a good doctor, coz its where i find my full service... i love touchi,ng the lives of other people, of helping them, most especially those who could not afford to get the help they need... health is one of them... not everybody could afford to see a doctor... but i want to be one of their hopes... its too early to say, but that's how i see my medical career to be... as what my father told me, WAG KANG MANANAGA NG PASYENTE...do not prioritize the career to earn money, bu think first and foremost in helping them... cool... a word coming from my dad... being the future first-doctor of the family, both sides, i know it will be a big help to my family as well... i'm just excited about it... hopefully things will go smoothly.... from the nmat, to my med applications, down to my graduation!!!!
all i need is to believe in Him... i remember, last year, during these days, God revealed me something that made me excited and at the same time, threatened... somehow, i felt that He would help me to go to the medical school i greatly wish for.... during that time, i did not entertain much of the idea, coz, embarrassing as it is, i was praying for someone who would go to that same medical school... but now, i remembered His word... i want to lift up everything to Him.. whatever His plans for me... i would still want to serve, though i'm in a different track of my life... another chapter, but still one service... for Him...
whaaah!!!! is there such a thing as graduation gitters? the fear of not graduating... because of threats such as THESIS!!!????!!!! whaaaah... tomorrow, Tuesday, i have a deadline with my thesis... unfortunately, my SPSS program is not functioning properly... so i could not encode my data... and i could not open my partial data i already encoded before.... whaaah!!! too bad.... i might possibly have sleepless monday night!!! all i hve to do is encode.... goodluck!
another thing, another issue that made worry, though it's one step higher, that is to graduate with honors... well, until now, i'm still kept hanging... too sad... i do not know if i could qualify or not, all depending on the remaining semester... it feels bad to be placed on the boarder of the bridge, not knowing if you could survive, or just fall... that's where i really belong now...
right now, i am happy.. i am happy with my family... with my friends... with my service most especially... i told my self that i will give my best shot of my service in yfc in my senior year... and that no matter how tough things will go for me, i know i have one GOD to hold me tight.... ^_^
and with my love life??? nah.... as always, nothing exciting at all... i am just glad coz God really is answering my prayers, and that i am still holding on to my promise to Him.. when i started my senior year, i prayed that my heart will only be for Him, at least for a year... for 20 years i have remained single, and i am proud of it.. i just prayed that may He grant me the last year of my college life be single still... to give more time to enjoy with my friends, more time for my academics, time for my orgs and other affiliations, and of course, for my service... i am always praying that may He give me NO distractions right now... that He may guard my heart... and He's granting it... i just want to be sure to my self of what my goals are... and thank you that You did not leave me...
catharsis... wow... sign of such deprivation... having no one to talk to at this moment... thanks to the one who invented the blog... for in my silent moments, i'm kept loud.... haha!! ^_^
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