right this very moment... i felt bad on the girl in this net caf.... she is soooo masungit... to the highest level... oh well, what i hate so much is the microsoft word installation that progresses in 10 years... as in i have to print my files and have to go back in dorm... but i am waiting.. oh my!!!!! so i just decided to drop by and blog what i feel!!!!

anyweiz, this day wasn't bad at all... in fact, i am so happy because mom and i are already ok.. oh well, we did not talk about our misunderstanding this time.. dad and mom drop by the dorm this afternoon and brought us food!!! yumyum!!!! they are on their way to Anduy!!!! i miss that baby!!! well, i did not spend a single centavo for my lunch today!!!! hehe=)

aside from the reconciliation of mother and daughter, i also saw cutie cute hans, DS kid from SpEd PGH.... it's good to see parents and caretakers of the students helping each other in cleaning and preparing the rooms for the opening of SpEd classes on the 19th... hans happened to be the only kid there... he grew a little bit and became a little fat... good thing for him=) and what makes me happier is that when i was about to leave rehab, he kissed me.. the funny thing is that before he kissed me, he wiped the lollipop he was eating on his lips, and i was surprised that he kissed me on the lips.... i tasted the lollipop... haha!! that kid is really sweet!!!=)

until now, the word is still progressing very very slow!!!! it hasn't reached halfway yet!!! oh my.. i wanna leave.... and eat dinner!!!!!whaaahhh!!!!

shocks, its raining men! im certainly stuck here in net caf with my sis! haven't had dinner yet... the rain falls so heavy and we ain't got umbrella! who would expect it will rain that it was so hot before we went here??? whaaaah!!!!!! oh my!!!! as the song goes: RAIN RAIN GO AWAY, COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAY... LITTLE KEGGY WANTS TO PLAY! haha!!!!!

vacation's finally over.. well, i ain't got vacation at all.. i had my summer practicum experience, which is totally fun, then i spent most of my time here in Manila anyweiz.. but tomorrow, the official day of classes, i'm still not sure how will i survive! i finally gave up on the hope that i will be supported with my allowance, but no grudge about that! it's a good thing that my sister finally found a new job and she could continue in sustaining my finances, however, i will be expecting it by 1 or 2 months from now! hay! what will i do? i really am not certain. my job applications aren't certain yet, and yet, i am not sure if i could manage to have one! but i really want to find a decent job that i will surely enjoy..... tomorrow will be preoccupied... have to be in school to prepare some tasks, then the first GA of our org, and after that, i am thinking of running to Makati for my first job interview, however, i know i will not afford to get a job in call center... i will just go there for the sake of experiencing it! haha!

my heart's little by little hardens... with people i am surrounded at, i suddenly felt that i am not the emotional type and the soft hearted person anymore, as i used to be... am i getting tougher? to the point that i am turning bad? it does not make me happy, honestly.. but i could just not help it to notice the mistakes of people who are commiting the same mistakes over and over again.. i just recently had a bad encounter with my mom again... for the reason of i do not know why! before i left for manila a week ago for a meeting, we were in good terms as far as i remember... and when i arrived yesterday, she ceased talking to me, as well as my sister! and worse, it was her birthday! we even bought her gifts, but she obviously showed us that she doesn't care at all! it hurts me to be treated that way, actually, but for only a while that i felt that! i would not want to develop hard feelings towards her... so i'd rather let the issue pass this time... i do not want to be affected anymore! please Lord, help me!

im back here.. and i have only one week for my vacation... however, i am planning to grab the chance for job hunting.. how i wish i would be able to make it.. and find a job that would help me... goodluck!

btw, i have read the book I Kissed Dating Goodbye... for more than a year after my first attempt of reading it, i finally appreciated the book recently and was able to appreciate... i have so many realizations, and most of the concepts of Joshua Harris really hit me.. there are so many things i thought was right, but then, i tend to go beyond my limits... like, the infatuation things.. i realized that my previous actions were sinful... i do not think i could discuss the whole content that applied to my life, but i am really blessed for encountering that book... thank God.. and lately, reminders of what to do right come along my way, and i am so thankful for that.. right now, my concentration will be on God, until i find the right man for me...i made a deal to Him and myself that i will graduate NBSB, and no problem about that... i always pray that whenever tempations come along, i would be able to fight it and that may i be often reminded of my goals and my service... He has done so much for me.. and i would want to return Him the favor...

Lord, i lift up my senior year to You.. please bless me and protect me and my heart... to you i pray that the right man for me You will keep safe and attached to You...may he also be experiencing right now the love and care You show me... thanks Lord for everything!