april 25-26.. my first summer getaway.. with highschool barkada aka ADORABLES... i thought i would be odd to be there alone, w/ no date accompanying.. but then, amy was there.. and we are both single! haha ^_^ so it wasn't much a big deal for me anymore..

anyways, we stayed at PALM TREE RESORT, Barretto, Olongapo, Zambales.. hmmm.. don't attempt to stay there, ok? and if u're looking for a beach ambiance, cross out Subic as your choice.. i don't know, maybe there are other good resorts that we were not able to explore.. anyways, we moved on.. we just made sure we enjoyed ourselves.. with all the food.. in fact, we went there for a FOOD TRIP! hahaha ^_^

our lunch was good! EXTREMELY EXPRESO in Subic! wow! everything in that place is great! and indeed, people stop by there to taste their mouth-watering pizza full of melted cheese and toppings...hmmmmm..if u'll be in that area, make sure to taste their pizza...

the highlight of my weekend vacation was POKER! grabe, it was my first time to play poker.. tnx to my mentor, AMY.. and to my competitors, mike and axis.. hehehe ^_^ next time, i will beat you guys! ^_^ i think i just don't have that beginner's luck.. coz i lost a buy in of P50.. hehehe ^_^

and of course, we would not miss our chismisan galore and reminiscing our highschool memories.. all the fun, the trips.. and the people.. hahaha ^_^

well, maybe we enjoyed ourselves too much that i was not able to take much pictures.. haha.. well, these are some.. with good poses.. hehe =)

ADORABLE LADIES: jo, amy, keg, maco, des
MISSING IN ACTION: trisha, dang, sharney

just after our lunch at Terriyaki Boy in Subic

the only group pic we had.. tnx to the Terriyaki Boy waitress=)

des, amy, keg, jo

maco, amy, des, keg.. still in the resort, before our check out

des, keg, amy... waiting for our pizza and pasta at Extremely Expresso

unang duty ko ngayon sa ER ng PGH.. ako ay nagvolunteer sa Pahinungod.. first rotation: PEDIA... ayun, unang 5 oras ng aking duty, super BORING.. 5 oras na nakaupo.. unang 2 oras, kasama ko yung PH student (ooops, nakalimutan ko ang pangalan nya!sori...).. pagkatapos, dumating naman si Harrell... mabuti nlng at andun sya at may naka-chikka ako.. grabe as in, nakaupo lang kme sa nurses' station.. kahit anong kulit namin sa nurse-on-duty na utusan kami, wala din nmn sila maiutos sa amin dahil benign nmn ang pedia ER (PER).. buti nlng, one hour bago kme umalis, may isang nurse na nagpakuha sa amin ng vital signs ng lahat ng mga patients sa PER.. and ang massabi ko lang... ang hirap pala magkuha ng vital signs ng mga babies!!! as in!!! or siguro kasi hindi pa ako sanay.. first time ko un, actually.. kasi puro adult ang aming mga ginagawan ng mga vitals.. un bp, ang hirap sa mga small babies... and honestly, kahit un pulses nila, waaah... ang hihina.. may iba naman, nawawala bigla..

well, it was a good experience.. but one thing i've realized, ayoko pala mag pedia.. but i still don't know.. this is just what i feel as of the moment, but i'm not closing doors naman.. tom, i'll try a 10pm-6am duty in triage.. buti nlng, may partner ako.. more ER stories to go!! ^_^

the heat is very intense..i feel like i want to burst.. all the hormonal imbalances.. all the irritations.. all the things that cross my mind... and up to this moment, i feel a big J.... its up to you how would you give meaning to this single letter, so little yet gives me BURDEN!

i don't know what exactly the time is.. around 4 am or 5am? well, im still awake coz i finished watching the totally addicting BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS... Korean version of Meteor Garden.. for the past three days i have had this lifestyle.. staying up late, oh i mean, as early as 6am! hehehe.. and now, it's over.. still having the hang over of the drama.. i swear, it's worth watching! i highly recommend it, especially to those who are Asianovela addicts!

anyway, apart from the BBF thing, what triggered me to post a blog is the realization that finally, I AM ALREADY THIRD YEAR THIS COMING JUNE! i remember the start of the school year 2008-2009, i had this fear inside me, the fear of failing, for i hear most say that sophomore year is the hardest year level.. i remember a good friend of mine told me that if i pass 2nd year, then there should be no reason to fail in the next year levels.. that second year med school is the most toxic level, and by the time i reach 3rd year, i am already used to the feeling of toxicities of medical school.. if i would flunk in 3rd, then the most probable reason is that i got too lazy... i even remember myself writing on that yellow sticker note saying something like: "don't be afraid of second year med school, just continue to love with what you're doing and PRAY..".. that yellow sticker paper remained in my bulletin board inside my memorable room for the entire school year..

and so this coming june, i'm gonna be in V-neck uniform.. funny to say, that during my battle in my classes (the most memorable, or should i say, horrible, was CLIN PATH), what immediately motivated me to give my best is that i want to wear V-neck this June! being a quadricentennial graduate of UST follows.. and of course my dream of becoming a doctor. behind this dream is my family, who continuously give their support...

a lot of things happened to me for the past 10 months.. in there i laughed, cried out loud, some time cried inside of me that no one can hear , thought in silence, fought, acted dramatically, gossiped, addicted to tv shows though i have no television, dvd hunting in Quiapo (hehehhe), hang out on a Friday night, watched movies with friends even the most baduy movie there is, ate as if there's no tomorrow, drunk, shopped and window shopped, addicted... caffeine, smoked.... weed (jooke!), cared (and searched/found care), learned to depend (too much) on some people, loved someone, and even more.... i could say that i grew up a year more matured than who i was before.. though i have still some issues left unresolved, but i know i will come back to them and meet them face to face..These tears and joys that i had experienced would not be this exciting and memorable without people who have been with me for that past 10 months.. sad though it may be, that some said goodbye, some have taken a break, but in the end, i believe, that these people will gonna be treasured, forever..

way to go med school! ^_^

i'm still missin' you.. i've kept my distance, yet slip moments there were thoughts of you, the good times we had, all the laughters we shared.. you're such a fool for being to distant, very abrupt, not giving me time to adjust in loosing what we had, in loosing you.. and so am i, for after all you've done, all i think of is still you...
i want to hate you, but i can't! =(