it's good to be back... in Christ's army.... i felt at ease once again with my friends... finally, i can say i've started my sem right.... with God's guidance, i know i can survive..... He never stops to shower me with bountiful blessings... and with my yfc friends, you are a family.... rock on with God!!

haven't watched harry potter yet.... i'm not addicted to it anyways.... as if everybody are dying to watch the film.... it's just not in my first hand interests.... but it's good to know there are people who asks me to watch the film with them... khit di ak nkkrelate.. haha=) thanks!=) very much appreciated!=)

i haven't seen "him" these past few days... the time i told my self i would give up, i've seen him and he greeted me then... but lately, he'd been so invisibile.... probably i'm not wasting my time trying to look for him everywhere... i am sticking to my sign... that if he replied, then still go.. but he did not, so i'll do the other way around... actually, i haven't thought of him much lately... it was only until right this moment that i remembered he exists!!! haha, i'm just joking!!! =p possible that we would not jive... him being so silent, and me, a semi-silent type... hehe=)

i'm proud to say, I'M NOT BITTER ANYMORE.... and i have no intentions of entertaining things that will make me feel bitter.... haha!!!=) hopefully, this will be the last entry about him, though i have said this a lot of times already.. hehe=) but hopefully, i would be true to my word.... his non-existence to my sight helped me move on... yehbah!!!!!=)

my friends associate me with the word "brave".... especially pag biruan... but i'm really not.... sabi ko last na talaga to... if he responds, then go... but if he does not, i have to let go.... tama na... i have said these things a lot of times, yet i cannot make a stand for my self... they say be brave... cos you will never know... but i am not... how i wish i really have the same courage as others.. it will be a year na since something popped!!!! seeing him very serious and very mysterious, he got my attention... but i did not make the same... as if he has a world of his own.. not interested in anything... but then i have realized, he could have not be the person i expect him to be.... in the first place, i do not know him... we were not given opportunity to interact and know each other.. so it's so unfair for me to judge him that way... he may appear as if he's not interested in anything simply because he's not interested to me.... that's it.. and a sad reality i have to accept... i have thanked him a lot of times... even though my thanks of million times won't reach him.... i thank him at his back.... the same thing i feel for him.. not brave enough... even to start a conversation... there are lots of chance for me to make my move.... a move of just making friends with him... but a simple friendship i am always hoping for seems very hard for me to achieve.... i do not have the courage... is it because he acts as if i was right about him.. or maybe i have my fault... i do not know... but i promised my self... this is the last thing... and he did not... well, sad but have to face... at least i was brave enough to accept reality....