my friends associate me with the word "brave".... especially pag biruan... but i'm really not.... sabi ko last na talaga to... if he responds, then go... but if he does not, i have to let go.... tama na... i have said these things a lot of times, yet i cannot make a stand for my self... they say be brave... cos you will never know... but i am not... how i wish i really have the same courage as others.. it will be a year na since something popped!!!! seeing him very serious and very mysterious, he got my attention... but i did not make the same... as if he has a world of his own.. not interested in anything... but then i have realized, he could have not be the person i expect him to be.... in the first place, i do not know him... we were not given opportunity to interact and know each other.. so it's so unfair for me to judge him that way... he may appear as if he's not interested in anything simply because he's not interested to me.... that's it.. and a sad reality i have to accept... i have thanked him a lot of times... even though my thanks of million times won't reach him.... i thank him at his back.... the same thing i feel for him.. not brave enough... even to start a conversation... there are lots of chance for me to make my move.... a move of just making friends with him... but a simple friendship i am always hoping for seems very hard for me to achieve.... i do not have the courage... is it because he acts as if i was right about him.. or maybe i have my fault... i do not know... but i promised my self... this is the last thing... and he did not... well, sad but have to face... at least i was brave enough to accept reality....