where am i to start? oh well, right now, i could say, i am in heaven!!!! oh yes!!! just arriving from a youth camp, a very memorable one... well, my camp, which was last year, is a memorable one too... but this thing is different... this is my first camp being part of the service team.... and the feeling is unexplainable...

hmmmm... where should i start? a question i haven't found the answer yet... but i knew, the moment i was told there was a camp, and was invited to be a facilitator, i got excited!as in! but too bad, few days before the camp, i started doubting my self... should i or should i not serve? as there are so many temptations.. so many things that i doubted, that i had the tendency backing up!as in like, i thought of going home to batangas, and the financial constraints i am currently facing.. plus knowing that andy will be going back sta mesa this weekend..and i also considered my acads, thesis, family in batangas... i made up excuses my self, but i realized, damn! i'm making a fool out of my self... but despite the temptations, i still managed to be there...i confidently say, "i chose my Lord over others!"...

i would like to always remember one of the most astig incident that happened... the night before the camp, a good friend of mine and a dormate as well, happened to have a talk with me... i never expected to have the conversation coz we were both tired then... but i was surprised she knocked on my window, and then she started talking to me.. she first asked me what were my concerns, and i said, physical stress, coz that's what i really felt that moment... having a class til 8:30 pm.. could you imagine?! she wanted to tell me a message in which she considers as God's message for me.. at first she was hesistant, knowing that i might not need the word that time... bt she told me in the latter... God's message goes "like just trust Him.. lift up everything to Him... and do not mind what others may say about me... " well, thinking about that, i felt nothing.. i just told her that i may have not realized the reason behind the message, but i believed soon... but i did not expect it to be that soon.. as in like 10 minutes after our conversation started, i told her that the day after (sat), i will serve in the yfc camp and will be one of the facilitators... but shared her my dilema, that i haven't had the gift of tongues yet, and i might not be a good faci... and instantly, the message reminded that ooopss!!! don't think that way... God is just so great that at that moment, i found the purpose of his message... and that message stuck in my mind and helped me in the entire camp!!

it just feels good to take good care of people... to know their stories, to get their trust.. to let them feel God's love.. for helping them see God's powerful works.. for touching their lives even though you haven't really expected it to happen....it's good to see the lives of those people changed.... to see them being touched my God... it makes me happy to know that there are people who seeks God.. and to see them lift up their concerns to Him... that was overwhelming!!! i also carry a lot of burden, but during the entire camp, though i had worries, i felt that they suddenly disappeared... i was able to lift up everything to Him... he's just so powerful!!!! i learned a lot from the camp.. from the service itself, the brothers and sisters, as well from the participants, most especially my babies.. they let me realized a lot of things about life... that there isn't really such a perfect life... but i am thankful for the gift of life He gave me...

it's a great great feeling of knowing that after this camp, another batch of Christ's followers is here.. the YFC family increases.. and i hope, we could continuously glorify Him and be good reflections of His love.... shocks!!! i really really regret NOTHING in this experience... i learned to love other people... coz that's what God simply tells us.. to just love our neighbors... to love our brothers and sisters... and now, i know i finally understood what He means about loving... Praise God!!!!