it's the official end of our practicum.. i went to rehab on civilian attire.. as i entered PGH,i felt something different. for more than a month i have been wearing white uniform, that i directly pass the guards without inspecting my bag.. but now, i am back to the old routine of passing those entrances... i have to present my id in order to escape answering their questions of where i would be heading...

the clinical experience is really a test of friendship.. it gave me grounds to get to know people whom i have been with more years but because of failure to get to know them deeper as they deserve, i was not able to recognize what they could be more than what i have known... i haven't explored those people to their cores... i am indeed thankful that a chance was given to me to bond with them and get to know them... those people are great! i do not need to seclude my self in my own peer group...

another test of friendship is by managing how to deal with them... just this afternoon, i got irritated to the attitude of some of my colleagues.... i did not get mad at the person/s but with the attitude they showed... if you were given a task, you are responsible for attending to it, right? if you could not afford to attend to it, however, you could speak out earlier, or better yet, seek the help of other people, in a nice way.. it is really frustrating.... more, if it only happened once, but more than that, something is wrong... i know there are peple who are really passive... each one of us has different attitudes... but i do not want to risk a friendship because of those shallow issues... they are not big deal anyways... each one of us has views things differently.. they have their minds.. they are capable to do what they want or what they think is right... i do not want to become an intruder to their lives, or to anyone's life.. i have to gauge the person first and foremost and do the next step after assessing him/her... what ever actions i do to other people should be careful, in positive or negative way.. even in words that i say...

i do not have any intentions of destroying a friendship or any relationship i have with other people in very silly and petty matter... when i am mad, or disappointed, i make it to a point that after bursting for a while, past is past... i do not have to recall the past bitterness because it will only prevent me from moving on... i am not perfect anyways... i have my own shortcomings.. and who am i to have a stone heart?