for the past few days, i've encountered a lot of confusions... the confusion of which should i pursue a career i have been dreaming ever since? or rather take the chance of trying other things for the sake of practicality? i questioned my plan of going to med school after graduation, brought about by the guilt feeling of somehow be able to help the family recover financially if i would choose to work instead...

and to add more on the tension, something shocking event happened that i believed made a great impact to the whole family... after the failure of the family business, i was afraid that i might not be able to pursue medicine....admitting that my immediate family is not financially capable of sending me to med school, but my relatives are all out willing to support... but because of what happened, i doubted once again, that this could be a sign not to continue anymore....

but it turned out the other way around... after few exchange of emails with my uncle, finally i was enlightened that if the heart really calls for it and that your fate leads you to your dreams, no matter what happened, it will find its way... just keep on believing.. and praying!

i would like to share the emails with my uncle...and for anyone who reads this post be able to feel the importance of family support in whatever you dream of becoming...as long as you really fight for it... and believe in it... these emails made me cry... becuase of disappointments (in the first parts) and because of joy and appreciation (in the latter part).... the emails go this way:

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From: Dyan Kristel Sabalvaro [mailto:qt_tenx10x@yahoo.com]
Sent: Thursday, September 21, 2006 2:17 AM
To: Nelson Sabalvaro (nsabalva); Nelson Sabalvaro
Subject: suggestion for a date/med appli

hi uncle pogi!(^_^)

kmusta? may naiisip na akong ipa-date sayo pag uwi mo ng Pinas.. (the following sentences are no longer important and relevant...)

btw, start na po ng mga application for med schools... this morning, galing ako sa UP Med.. magastos pala kahit application palang... bale sa UP, w/c i would expect to be the cheapest, eh pHp750... kung ok lang po bang pa sponsor sa inyo ng med schools application ko? dunnow how much will the total cost be...other target schools would be UERM, UST, and PLM.. i would also want to retake my NMAT, this time i have to double my efforts to reach the quota of UP Med... it would be this December, but the application forms are already available.. bale last year, 2K po ang cost nun..

my intial plan is to pay the NMAT myself.. pero i have to give up my work in order for me to concentrate more on my acads and THESIS!!! so nabigo ang pangarap kong kumuha ng NMAT out of my own pocket..

that's it.. you know naman the current financial status of my family.,, we are moving on, but they are not that prepared to pay high expenses like these...

and back to your date, so far, sya ang ok sa nakikita ko.. but i will still look for other girls..haha..malay mo, isa sa mga doctors na naeencounter ko these days (sila kc ang thesis respondents ko)... mga young and pretty karamihan sa knila! hehehe...

super super salamat po tlga....*sigh*sigh* take care and God bless(^_^)

--> kRiSsY_sExY
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"Nelson Sabalvaro (nsabalva)" wrote:

Hi Krissy,

I can definitely sponsor you with your med school applications, but let me propose it first at our SAQ fund. I'm certain that it will be approve and if not then I can help you on that. So, just apply to schools, good school I would suggest. I would really like you to try your very best to make it to UP. If it takes to quit your job then so be it. Even here in the States, if you're a graduate of UP (or maybe UST) it is a big difference.

Now, regarding ****, I looked at her at friendster and yeah she a little chubby but I still like to meet her. Btw, her friendster profile is only limited to her 1st degree friends so I don't see the details and her other pics. Yeah, find me someone from UP :)

Just let me know in advance when do you need the money so we can prepare for it.

Regards,
uncle nelson
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Mon, 25 Sep 2006 08:42:15 -0700 (PDT)
From: "Dyan Kristel Sabalvaro" View Contact Details View Contact Details Add Mobile Alert
Subject: RE: suggestion for a date/med appli
To: "Nelson Sabalvaro"
uncle pogi..

hallooo... well, thanks so much for your support in my dream to continue medicine... well, i just got the information now regarding UST Med application.. the application fee is 1200... then for UP, its 750... those are the schools i have idea so far.. im still planning to inquire in UERM.. for UST, i was informed that those surnmes starting in Gs has a deadline of until Sept28... so assume, by the first week of october will be the deadline for the surnames S... i never expected it would be that soon... UP med however, is until dec8.. and also, regarding the NMAT, as far as i know, the application is already available this time...so anytime i could just go to their office...

i never expect that merely application would be that expensive.. still there will be other expenses, which i am still about to discover when i started applying... i really am targetting to make it to UP Med... hopefully and that's what i am really praying for... i'm doing the best i can..with my academics as well as in my extracurriculars coz as what i have heard, they weigh a lot... but still, i need to concentrate on the NMAT review... i might be spending my semester break here in dormitory budgeting my time for my thesis and for the review of NMAT...
well, those are the updates so far..

btw, are you watching the show Grey's Anatomy?it's my currently favorite show..i asked my friend to burn me a copy of the dvd.. hehehe... it is very inspiring! (^_^)
thats it... thanks a million times for everything! Godbless! (^_^)
---> kRisSy_sExy

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"Nelson Sabalvaro (nsabalva)" wrote:

hello krissy,

i mentioned med applications expenses and it was approved that you can get it from the SAQ fund. we also already talked to a.yolly about this so, she knows already. just get the money to a.yolly whenever you need it, ok?

good luck on your applications!

uncle pogi :)

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From: Dyan Kristel Sabalvaro [mailto:qt_tenx10x@yahoo.com]
Sent: Thursday, October 05, 2006 4:59 AM
To: Nelson Sabalvaro (nsabalva)
Subject: RE: suggestion for a date/med appli

uncle pogi :)
hello... thanks a lot po for the support...but i heard what had happened to ElizBern... the family probably be in crisis, financially and emotionally i bet... nahihiya nman po ako kng sasabay pa ung pag-memed ko with what you are undergoing right now..indeed i do not have the full picture of what happened to the business, but i know what happened made a big impact to all of us... i am not the only student SAQ is supporting...so if the foundation will be affected, i would understand if my med educ would not push thru... my family could not really support me financially in that matter...
gusto ko lng po muna malaman ang stand nyo before i start applying... personally, i would really want to pursue, pero sympre, if financial constraints would stop it, ok lng po...
shux, i'm being too emotional... but thanks a lot po for everything... hope its not yet too late for the business to rise up again...and improve for the better... and hope all of you there are doing fine despite the struggles... (^_^)
--> kRisSy_sExY

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Subject: RE: suggestion for a date/med appli
Date: Thu, 5 Oct 2006 11:03:38 -0700
From: "Nelson Sabalvaro (nsabalva)" View Contact Details View Contact Details Add Mobile Alert
To: "Dyan Kristel Sabalvaro"
Krissy,

One of the reasons why we decided to fold on ElizBern is we cannot take the risk of loosing more money and impact SAQ fund. So, don't worry about financial and we will try our best to make sure that we continue to support your school expenses. No pressure but probably one of most rewarding to all of us here is to see you graduate medicine (the first doctor in the family :). And to see you guys successful and accomplish your dreams.

So do the best you can and let us know what happen to your applications, ok?

And equally important is to look for my date when I come over there in January :)

-uncle pogi

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people say i am happy whenever i share them about what i am undergoing...well, given that i have my family who are all out supportive financially...but far beyond the money matters, it's the support one could gain in achieving her goals.... not just for me, but for the whole pamangkins...

i really really do admire them, a lot... the way they treat us... all their support.... and the attitude... they act what a family should really be....supporting each other.... i would say, i love my family...my immediate, though they could not support financial matters, but the thought that they are morally supporting me to pursue my dreams even it means for them to trade an easier life they could possibly get if i work.... and my relatives, both sides... they really would want to help me, especially my dad's side.. financially, yep... and it's not that easy to send someone to med school....

the best reward i could give them would be finishing my med degree and yep, my uncle's right.. be the first doctor in the family...

i could not get more than excited.... hay... this is it... a sign i've been waiting for... a sign to saying YES! go for it! thank you Lord! >(^_^)<